yay it's easter. but nothing's gonna change easter. it's gonna be like any other day. everyone's gonna treat me like they do any other day. i'll be ignored. all the time im ignored. im just the guy that's there when people dont have anyone else to talk to; cuz they have no choice but to talk to me. what do i get for trying to get attention? apparently i get in trouble. people resent me and are disappointed in me for wanting to get some attention. what do i get for leaving other people alone to be by myself? apparently i either get the same thing, or i get what i usually get. i get ignored. what happens when i do neither? im ignored; again. No one WANTS ME. i bet no one gives a damn about me. i can't even get a word of comfort from the people i care most about. i bet the only person i told this to just feels sorry for me. i dont want your pity, i want to know you care; that there's some love there. i dont want just "sighs" and "=/"s. im just kicked aside like trash. fine. dont talk to me. if you're gonna treat me like trash, i'll be the trash in the road of your lives. youu can either throw me away or kick me to the side. pretend im not there and go on with your lives. nothing'll change because nothing changed when i WAS there or when i was TRYING to be there.no matter how much i've tried, i cant get into "the loop". i dont deserve to understand what you guys are talking about.maybe im a loser. okay i'll accept that. and if that's the case, i understand. so thanks for leaving me alone Easter sunday. thanks for being there for me.
-petros.
